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self-con·fi·dence
/ˌsɛlfˈkɒnfɪdəns, ˈsɛlf-/ Show Spelled[self-kon-fi-duhns, self-] Show IPA
–noun
1.
realistic confidence in one's own judgment, ability, power, etc.
2.
excessive or inflated confidence in one's own judgment, ability, etc.
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Origin:
1630–40
—Related forms
self-con·fi·dent, adjective
self-con·fi·dent·ly, adverb
—Synonyms
1. assurance, self-possession, self-respect, poise. 2. conceit, self-esteem.
What the hell is self confidence? I am having such a tough time with this topic.
For days (upon days), I didn't know what to write. I mean, I was not about to send a blank email w/ " self confidence" in the subject line, although, I was extremely tempted to do just that.
Anyone dealing with the turmoil of addiction knows self confidence is just not part of their environment -- @ least not for me!
Sadly, nothing has changed in the self confidence department. No matter how much recovery time I have knitted together, my insides are still the same. I am not living in my disease but I am living with self-esteem issues. What is ironic, is I tend to be shy & that comes across that I am conceited. Ha! I tend to be a bit snobbish but that doesn't equate to self confidence. I am working on my self confidence a day @ a time. Standing up for myself and my beliefs and not backing down means I have self confidence some level. Tonight, I had the self confidence during a meeting to stand up for our traditions and knew I was up against one of those "stars" but I stood my grown. To further stand up for myself and exercise my self confidence muscle, I stepped down from a moderator position tonight. Shortly after, I was described as "strong arming" someone and then...
self-con·fi·dence
/ˌsɛlfˈkɒnfɪdəns, ˈsɛlf-/ Show Spelled[self-kon-fi-duhns, self-] Show IPA
–noun
1.
realistic confidence in one's own judgment, ability, power, etc.
2.
excessive or inflated confidence in one's own judgment, ability, etc.
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Origin:
1630–40
—Related forms
self-con·fi·dent, adjective
self-con·fi·dent·ly, adverb
—Synonyms
1. assurance, self-possession, self-respect, poise. 2. conceit, self-esteem.
What the hell is self confidence? I am having such a tough time with this topic.
For days (upon days), I didn't know what to write. I mean, I was not about to send a blank email w/ " self confidence" in the subject line, although, I was extremely tempted to do just that.
Anyone dealing with the turmoil of addiction knows self confidence is just not part of their environment -- @ least not for me!
Sadly, nothing has changed in the self confidence department. No matter how much recovery time I have knitted together, my insides are still the same. I am not living in my disease but I am living with self-esteem issues. What is ironic, is I tend to be shy & that comes across that I am conceited. Ha! I tend to be a bit snobbish but that doesn't equate to self confidence. I am working on my self confidence a day @ a time. Standing up for myself and my beliefs and not backing down means I have self confidence some level. Tonight, I had the self confidence during a meeting to stand up for our traditions and knew I was up against one of those "stars" but I stood my grown. To further stand up for myself and exercise my self confidence muscle, I stepped down from a moderator position tonight. Shortly after, I was described as "strong arming" someone and then...
BAMM...
My anonymity was broken (again). I did not roar, retaliate or stoop to dirty tactics. I remained cool, calm & composed -- thank you to my angel in recovery -- for sharing your grace. I allowed God to show me that people w/ many years in the rooms are still spiritually sick -- they just have "years of filling seats".
My blossoming self confidence emerged right on time -- God's time.
Now, I am learning how to nurture my self confidence & it is going to be an interesting journey.
Now, I am learning how to nurture my self confidence & it is going to be an interesting journey.
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