Feelings...

*Grumble*Pout*Stomp* Let me virtually toss something... *CRASH* LOL! I am now learning to care for myself & it is uncomfortable.

Yes, UNCOMFORTABLE. Let me say it again UNCOMFORTABLE. *BREATHE*. Tears are filling my eyes because I just don't know how to be in my own skin. I know how to be in my disease -- I'm numb so what do I care or I am just violently hurting myself by purging or I am hurting so much I starve.

Feelings are what brings me back to my food. Every. Single. Time.

I don't *do* feelings or any emotions well -- I am an all or nothing girl so as I traverse this journey -- the terrain of RECOVERY -- I am a FIRECRACKER.

*KABOOM*

Hahaha!!!