Step Three - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over the care of God as we understood Him.

Step Three - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over the care of God as we understood Him.

1. What have you learned from Steps One and Two that changed how you are feeling about your COE?

I am a compulsive overeater. I have always been a COE. Just as I must surrender to God, I must concede to my disease. I must relinquish MY WILL with food, purging & starving; situations that beleaguer me; people who besiege me & my capricious emotions. This revelation doesn’t mean I am weak – it just means I have a serious disconnect & the only way to connect ~ or reconnect ~ it to something that will allow me to receive the healing energy being conveyed to me, is to be ~ or get ~ honest & abdicate the fallacy that I am NOT a COE!

To deny that I have this malady is to entrust my life over to my contagion & to perish in the grips of my affliction. My disease’s only mission is to KILL ME!

I can’t do this on my own – not for myself or for anyone else. If I could of accomplished this solo, I would of done this many years ago; however, I was to busy believing the misconception that I could maneuver this roaring fact..

I no longer reside in Imagination County, where I was the Mayor of “Be All & End All Superiority City”. No longer do I have to control, destroy & dominate the events in my life. There is something GREATER than Diane & I MUST step aside, let go of the tethers & allow that POWER to reconstruct my insanity!

2. If you have already made this decision, please tell us how it has changed your COE and other parts of your life.

I FINALLY have a life now. I accept myself. I LOVE myself as is! My binge foods are NOT GOD! No longer am I subservient to purging, nor am I held captive by starving. The world doesn’t gyrate around me & I don’t have to take on the role of “Preeminent Executive of the Universe”.

3. Is there some indecision to taking this step? Explain.

None.

4. What would you like your HP to do in your life?

• To continue shinning His radiant sunlight upon me.

• To remind me I AM a COE.

• To heal the wounds that are etched deep w/I my soul.

• To guide me in all of my actions.

• To allow me to embrace my beauty, strength, serenity, grace, and love.

• To remember love & tolerance is our code.

• To remind me I AM NOT GOD.

• To honor tradition 5.

• To continue practicing these principles in all of MY affairs.

• Remove all my defects of character..

• Remove my shortcomings.

• To improve my conscious contact with God as I understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for me & the power to carry that out.

• To LISTEN.

• To say , “Yes” & “Thank you”.

• “ THY WILL, NOT MINE BE DONE”!


5. How can your HP change your physical recovery?

God has done for me what I could not – EVER – do for myself. By doing God’s Will, I have released over 160 pounds. The obsession has been banished from my mind. Pausing & listening to God’s direction instead of Diane’s deleterious mastery has spoken volumes with my physical recovery, but my serenity is worth more than all the riches in the world. To celebrate 14 months of being recovered, after over 6 years of digging my grave with my unhinged behavior around food is absolutely luminous & illustrates my walk not my counterfeit lip service.

I trust God to continue navigating me to my healthy destination. What must I do? Shut up, be still & listen to the conversation God is having w/ me.


6. How can your HP change your emotional recovery?

By staying out of my binge foods. By knowing my feelings aren’t facts.

7. If you cannot make the decision today, can you “act as if” you did? Explain.

I made this decision & I am living w/ the beauty & grace of giving it all to God to handle.
I know what happened when I was in charge – 400+ pounds. When I relinquished MY WILL, God unshackled me from the walls I was chained to.


8. Rewrite the Third Step Prayer so it really describes your decision to turn your will and life over to the care of God as you understand Him..

Heavenly Father, I surrender all I am, all I pretend to be & what I wish to become for You to remove & shape into the individual You intended me to be. Mold me into the person You created when you painted me on the canvas. Eradicate my self-centered actions, self-seeking machinations & conniving uproar . God, please reveal to me immediately when I am not filled with compassion, love, respect, and understanding for others. Abolish my obstructions & funnel them into the ocean & liberate them. Remind me of Your unconditional love as you make me a vessel of all Your beauty, dignity & grace. May I always be grateful for my cherished life. AMEN!